I'm going to be honest with you, as I endeavor to do in general on this blog in my posts about arts, culture and politics. I've felt discontented about this blog and my writing on it lately. I've found myself with little to say about the issues this blog is meant to be chiefly concerned with: theatre (in particular new plays), arts advocacy, politics and general cultural issues.
Some of this has little to do with me. The arts are slow-moving, and little seems to change at the pace necessary to have new things to say about it here on the blog. After an inspiring few months leading up to the election, there's a pretty long-ass fucking messy hard slog going on right now all over America in every field. Nothing will get fixed fast, that's not how the world works. But it can be discouraging.
I've also found myself deeply angry almost every time I sit down to write. Sometimes it comes out in the posts I write, sometimes it doesn't. Sometimes the struggle to not write purely out of anger kneecaps my ability to think through what I write. The end result is pretty clear... a bunch of fairly uninspiring posts, a lot of linking to other things, and not a lot said here.
I have simultaneously been writing a lot more outside of this blog. I'm working on a book proposal right now, which is a ton of work... you have to think through and write out in detail what the entire book will be chapter to chapter and then write two of them. And I've been trying to get all of my directing work in order for the next few months and some sound design gigs. And of course there's Critic-O-Meter.
I have for perhaps the first time since starting this blog seriously thought about giving it up basically every time I sit down to write. And very little of my writing lately is about theatre, something I care so much about it drove me to start writing in the first place.
So this is what I am going to do. I'm not going to write unless I feel like I have something to say and that that something adds to the conversation. That may mean that I post a lot less, I don't know. The posts might be longer or more formally written. It may mean I go a few days without posting. Hell, it may mean that I stop doing Parabasis altogether, but I doubt it.
I'm going to work hard to improve the quality of the writing and thinking on this site and, ultimately, to make myself happier with what I create here. I hope you'll do the same in the comments. If you want to make sure you know when a new post is up, subscribe to the feed (I use bloglines, a lot of people use Google Reader). And if you find something worth talking about, please please add your feedback in the comments.
See you soon.